Dark Side OF Life

Plunged into darkness and abyss of uncertainty, clinging to resignation to Lord's Will, as my body gave up this night and was unable to wake up with horrible headache, high bp, nausea and couldn't go to church. Thought the day of departure has come...Feeling better now a bit, still I surrender myself up to the Lord and His Providence. May His Will be done. Listening to gregorian chants to immerse myself in serenity and worthy emotions and repeating the words of Thomas Merton prayer as I do so often in my life in last few years...


My Lord God, I have no idea where I am going. I do not see the road ahead of me. I cannot know for certain where it will end. Nor do I really know myself, and the fact that I think I am following your will does not mean that I am actually doing so. But I believe that the desire to please you does in fact please you and I hope that I have that desire in all that I am doing. And I know that if I do this, you will lead me by the right road although I may know nothing about it. Therefore will I trust you always though I may seem to be lost and in the shadow of death, I will not fear, for you are ever with me and you will never leave me to face my perils alone.