Sidelined

For a moment I thought of a deja vu that was going to happen today. On the day my Mum passed away I drove to Butiama as I said in the morning post. The message reached me there. Today I was about to drove to Butiama too, to meet with the parish priest who wanted my advise on some issues. I got anxious a bit as I thought that this smells like a deja vu of January 3, 2009. Luckily, well maybe not so luckily after all, I cancelled the short hop to Butiama as I felt too weary to drive - there has been a new condition developing for me for a past few days, which was not present before - that of a fluctuation of blood pressure which I find quite difficult to handle and to be able to work as normal with this at times high B.P. So, I decided against driving in this condition and instead I chose to stay home and do some other mental work, which I have been doing since the morning hours... Guess so - sometimes being sidelined for health problems is not as bad as having a deja vu that sends a shiver down your spine that something very bad is going to happen any time...