What Better?

When worries - about people one cares for and loves, about important issues and challenges in one's life - reach unbearable intensity and one feels helpless and deeply hurt by the one's inability to shelter them from harm, what better can one do than to immerse and hide all the people, all that matters and oneself in the Ocean of Divine Mercy and to whisper - Jesus, I trust in You...?

"Commit your way to the LORD;

trust in him and he will act"

(Psalm 37:5)

Deep Sigh

Tough afternoon upon my return from Mwanza trip. Felt down, felt worn emotionally and physically, felt I needed to detach myself from sisters and work for a few, at least, hours. Locked myself in the room, deep in my thoughts. Things coming at me, making me feel cornered and overwhelmed. More and more every day... Then time came to celebrate the Eucharist with my sisters. Got myself tidied up and went to the house chapel for the Mass. The time for Consecration came, then Doxology, then Holy Communion and Thanksgiving song. Thoughts, deep sigh, opening up to Him. I prayed to Merciful Jesus, surrendering myself and the whole situation, the past, the present and the future, helplessly and unconditionally to his power and might and wisdom. The prayer of Thomas Merton was appropriate and timely at that moment, yet I preferred to stay silent opening myself to the Lord who knows everything and knows the remedies and ways out of everything that worries me and all those questions that have no answers... He knows. And I believe though deeply troubled and worried, that He will deliver. In due time.

Two Victories

This day today brought a genuine mental rollercoaster. Feeling a bit drained and burned out, but calmly happy as two miracles happened today, two small victories, two prayers heard and answered, and all this on this special day, the Feast of the Birth of Our Lady...

Epiphany

On Wednesdays I celebrate the Holy Mass with Novena to Our Lady of Perpetual Help. With head and heart heavy with various thoughts, intentions and worries, I knelt down in front of the icon of Our Lady and prayed in silence outpouring my heart to Our Lady asking for intercession and guidance.

When I finished the liturgy and took off vestments, I went back home to get ready for short hop to Zanaki Parish for today's deanery Mass which we are going to celebrate to mark the closing Year of Priests.

I was stopped in my tracks amazed at the God's revelation, I would say - Epiphany, when the heavy overcast heavens opened suddenly and I saw this (I had to rush home to get my camera so I could capture the moment)...

I guess you can take this sign as an answer to my worries? Or maybe a sign that answers will come the day and in the manner God Himself has already planned. I do hope so...